Oh so agitated..
Alright, I did what I shouldn't have done. I was doing so well at Staying in my own space and nto getting involved. Of all things I should not have brought it up to Lexy, it put me in thinking mode. Then I should not have gone back to his website.. I KNEW I shouldn't.. but I did it becuase I wanted to see, I figured there would be closure there. Instead I found a waiting boiling pot of What the fuck. Going there was wrong, and doing this is even worse.. I am the terrible person I keep trying not to be. I on the other hand feel the need to at least be able to defend part of my position.. it won't do any good it won't change anything, but if I can be misread, I should at least be able to type what was meant. But I won't because I know it was wrong.